Life has taken on such a different route

Thursday, March 29, 2007

I didn't expect pregnancy to change so much of my life. When you watch movies, you see happy expecting mummies-to-be going about life with so much energy. I, on the other hand, feel a bit lost in my new world.

For months, nausea was a part of my life 24 hours a day. I've been bed-ridden on bad days and on good days, I just kept puking wherever I was, be it at home, in the car, office, anywhere. Instead of having an appetite to feed two, I had none at all and lost weight until I swam in my clothes.

Now that I'm into my second trimester, I've puked a lot less and have gotten much of my energy back. I've got a new "companion" now - dizzy spells. But I'm glad for my much better condition now and getting the hang of my new world.

Life sure has changed a lot for me. Not just the physical aspects but my perception and thoughts have all seemed to take on different directions. Sometimes I even think about changing a great deal of my life's priorities and I wonder if that's me at all because they're far from what I've wanted before. Not sure if this is the natural progression towards parenthood.

There will be more scary times ahead of me, of that I can be sure. But for all it's worth, I really hope I get through it all without too much emotional turmoil.