Just when I was thinking of quitting...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Lately I've had thoughts about quitting the workforce altogether, and spend my time to do two things. I wanted to start a home business just so that I can earn enough to pay off my monthly bills, as well as to stay at home and take care of my boy myself. This all came about because his babysitter dropped the bomb on me early this month to say that she is quitting on me and so I needed to find another babysitter soon. After some persuasion, we have until end of January to find him another babysitter.

I guess my thoughts on this was very much driven by the fact that I did not want my boy to go through a difficult transition when changing babysitters. He is rather attached to the current one and has been very happy going there. I know that if he cries when he goes to a new one, I would be crying right alongside with him too. Thus my thoughts on taking care of him myself just to save him that pain.

It's not easy to make a life changing decision like this, but I somehow felt quite optimistic of making it work and day by day, I seem to be more confident that I can pull it off. Then, out of nowhere, I suddenly got unexpected calls from companies asking if I would consider making a career move as they have opportunities that they feel I may be suited for. Thinking it's no harm finding out, I agreed to some of these meetings and now I find myself thinking things all over again.

The prospects of a much better paying job certainly changes a lot of things. Of course, my boy is still my top priority in life, and I think that with more income in the family, it means that we can do even better for him now and for his future. Of course nothing is even close to being finalised and there's still the possibility that none of these will eventually work out and I may still be with the same job, and still thinking of quitting. It's just that the "what if" has been thrown my way just when I thought I'm close to making a big call for change in life.

It also doesn't help my case that some of these opportunities actually match some of my interests. In reality, it's not that easy to find jobs that you really enjoy doing. So when they are presented to you, you would naturally want to grab them, right? If only they were to offer totally unrelated work like programmer jobs or even a position in finance, it would be very easy to say thanks but no thanks and walk away without having to ask "what if?"

So what if, what if? I don't know. I'm just going to explore these opportunities as I go along and will decide only when the time comes to make a decision.

3 comments:

FooDcrazEE said...

owww . . . .that hurts alright . . . it isnt easy to find a good babysitter . . .

what about parent frm both side ?

Anonymous said...

I was in your position before and it was not that difficult to decide. The first priority is the child. So, you need only to ask your husband whether he can make enough for you to quit. I understand, what is enough very much depends on individual. A good gauge is whether he can cover the salary you are earning now. But if your husband just managed to make ends meet, then you better stay in the workforce. It sounds all about money, but this is very realistic. Good luck!

Eternity said...

Foodcrazee, our parents won't be able to take care of him. We don't want to tie them down at home all the time also. We're hoping that we will find a better babysitter. Fingers crossed!

Anon, I agree that in principle it sounds very easy to talk through this. It's just that when it comes to doing it for real, I get a little nervous. Nevertheless, I'm still pondering this topic and I'm taking my time to really gather enough courage!